My identity? This has been on my mind lately, just who am I? Am I Gary's wife, Makenzie and Zach's Mommy, a family member, a friend, a follower, a leader, a business woman, an athlete (I use that term very loosely these days!)...
I was wrestling with wanting to be more...wanting my own identity. I wanted to know exactly who I "was"...At any given moment I am all of those things or just 1 of them...since I started being more present in the moment a few months ago I realized I am so much better for it! It has brought me more joy and released so much pressure to just live moment to moment and be present in the moment I'm living...
When I'm on a date with Gary or spending time with him after the kids go down, I'm Gary's wife. When I'm playing with my kids or running errands with them, I'm Makenzie and Zach's Mommy. And did I mention how blessed I feel to be their Mommy and that I'm able to stay home with them!
When I'm with our family or chatting with them there is nothing like that family connection, familiarity and security, I'm part of a family.
When I'm spending time with a friend, I'm a friend (and sometimes a Mommy too if the kids are with me!).
When it's 5am and my family is cozy in bed sleeping and I'm on the computer or phone working, I'm a business woman. P31 woman has a whole new meaning to me now! ;)
When I'm working out, I'm trying to be an athlete.
And I hope that in all of these pursuits, I'm a follower of Jesus...in all my interactions I want to reflect Him...Lord, I know I fail at times but I'm trying!
I am so thankful I am who I am...although there are others whom I'd love to be like...and a few traits I'd love to lose of my own...they make me who I am and I am OVER the TOP GRATEFUL for all the things I get to be each day! -Gary's wife, Makenzie and Zach's Mommy, a family member, a friend, a follower, a leader, a business woman, and an athlete (this one still makes me laugh...ok, I used to be an athlete...now I'm just trying to be an athlete!)
Our Life!
It doesn't matter what road we travel...as long as we travel there together! :)
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
careful what you wish for...
Potty training...I'm just curious why ANYONE would want their child potty trained! I mean seriously this is one thing I regret...potty training Makenzie! I get it, it is a pain to change diapers! But has anyone been in a public restroom lately?!?! Today we were out to dinner at CPK...love the Moroccan salad! :) And of course Maki had to go potty...so Mommy took a deep breath and took her to the bathroom...it actually looked pretty clean...but to a GERM FREAK like me...I knew GERMS were lurking! So of course we had wet ones in hand (we buy stock in that company by the way!) we LOVE wet ones! Maki knows the drill...DON'T TOUCH ANYTHING! She really is so great and careful! But on this particular day Makenize touched the toilet seat and bowl...sigh, to many that may not be a big deal and I tried to blow it off like it wasn't but deep down I was FREAKING OUT! So much that while she was going potty I washed my hands...I hadn't even touched anything yet, but they just felt dirty! I know I'm crazy, Lord please help me! At home I could care less what she touches...I pride myself in our clean bathrooms...A MUST! But good Lord she touched a public restrooms toilet...
I asked her tonight if she wanted to wear diapers again and she touched my face, smiled and said "Mommy, you're silly!"
So if Zach is 10 and still wearing diapers you know why!
Germ freak (ME!) is going to watch a movie with my hubby! Good night! :)
I asked her tonight if she wanted to wear diapers again and she touched my face, smiled and said "Mommy, you're silly!"
So if Zach is 10 and still wearing diapers you know why!
Germ freak (ME!) is going to watch a movie with my hubby! Good night! :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
what i've been learning...
i'm so sorry for the radio silence lately...i've been going through a growth spurt spiritually (hopefully not physically!) and have been trying to figure it all out.
here is a little glimpse of my heart...
the last few months those near and far to us have been going through major crisis...dear friends of ours lost their newborn baby just moments after birth...this rocked my world. it rocked my world because we love these people and didn't want to see them hurt. it rocked my world because that precious little angel i felt deserved to live a full life with wonderful parents...but i realized it was not this baby i was mourning for because this baby was born in to the arms of jesus...i'm mourning for those amazing parents and their loss.
....so much more sadness.
to make a LONG story short...i've been realizing the more sadness i feel the more i need jesus to hold me. the more joy i feel i want to praise jesus. the more confusion i am faced with the more i pray to jesus.
so bottom line i need/want more of jesus!
i'm also learning to be more present in every thing in my life! no more distractions...this has been hard! i do not want to be distracted when i'm with my kids, hubby, family or friends. so my cell will be on silent much more now or not with me. so if i'm harder to reach, i'm sorry. but when i'm with you, you will have more of me.
ok enough of my babbling!!
a few updates on my cuties!
maki is without doubt the sweetest little thing i've ever encountered! she is sooo thoughtful and wonderful! example: she was really sick last week and tita (my mom) called to ask her what to send her to help her feel better...maki replied with i think binoculars or something and before she hung up she said "tita, don't forget to send zach something too!" my heart melted...she is always so aware of others feelings. she is the 1st one to comfort another child if they are sad or hurt...and she is over the top sweet and gushy with gary and me! although i'm thinking she may be working us a bit...she knows it melts us! ;)
and zach...wow he is hilarious! and so fun! he makes me laugh almost every moment! he is always smiling! and he is running all over the house! if a door is closed he opens it!-i'm thinking we need those handle cover things. the other day he woke up early from his nap and he disappeared...i found him in maki's room in the darkness saying "ma-ma" he wanted her to wake up! he is always knocking on or running in to Gary's office when he's working in there. maki finally gets the concept that daddy is "at work" when he is in the office but...zach not so much! oh well, hopefully soon! we can not have any gates up with zach either. if there is one up he just screams...he loves his freedom! i think we may be in trouble with this little one... ;)
and we are so excited baby micah is here! my brother and sister in law just had their 3rd little blessing! we can't wait to meet him...soon! :)
ok enough of me this am...
xoxo,
dani :)
here is a little glimpse of my heart...
the last few months those near and far to us have been going through major crisis...dear friends of ours lost their newborn baby just moments after birth...this rocked my world. it rocked my world because we love these people and didn't want to see them hurt. it rocked my world because that precious little angel i felt deserved to live a full life with wonderful parents...but i realized it was not this baby i was mourning for because this baby was born in to the arms of jesus...i'm mourning for those amazing parents and their loss.
....so much more sadness.
to make a LONG story short...i've been realizing the more sadness i feel the more i need jesus to hold me. the more joy i feel i want to praise jesus. the more confusion i am faced with the more i pray to jesus.
so bottom line i need/want more of jesus!
i'm also learning to be more present in every thing in my life! no more distractions...this has been hard! i do not want to be distracted when i'm with my kids, hubby, family or friends. so my cell will be on silent much more now or not with me. so if i'm harder to reach, i'm sorry. but when i'm with you, you will have more of me.
ok enough of my babbling!!
a few updates on my cuties!
maki is without doubt the sweetest little thing i've ever encountered! she is sooo thoughtful and wonderful! example: she was really sick last week and tita (my mom) called to ask her what to send her to help her feel better...maki replied with i think binoculars or something and before she hung up she said "tita, don't forget to send zach something too!" my heart melted...she is always so aware of others feelings. she is the 1st one to comfort another child if they are sad or hurt...and she is over the top sweet and gushy with gary and me! although i'm thinking she may be working us a bit...she knows it melts us! ;)
and zach...wow he is hilarious! and so fun! he makes me laugh almost every moment! he is always smiling! and he is running all over the house! if a door is closed he opens it!-i'm thinking we need those handle cover things. the other day he woke up early from his nap and he disappeared...i found him in maki's room in the darkness saying "ma-ma" he wanted her to wake up! he is always knocking on or running in to Gary's office when he's working in there. maki finally gets the concept that daddy is "at work" when he is in the office but...zach not so much! oh well, hopefully soon! we can not have any gates up with zach either. if there is one up he just screams...he loves his freedom! i think we may be in trouble with this little one... ;)
and we are so excited baby micah is here! my brother and sister in law just had their 3rd little blessing! we can't wait to meet him...soon! :)
ok enough of me this am...
xoxo,
dani :)
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